So I haven't done one of these life update bad boys cuz dang I'm a consistent mess but let's get this out of the way.
I didn't get into Dreamcatcher. I'm bummed but making a consorted effort to decide that that is a good thing. The roster is solid (though a few surprises as always) and it's gonna be a creative oct to watch and be inspired by for sure.
But it mostly is just a matter that I made a lot of big life decisions this month and it seems that the OCT life isn't going to be hanging out in my foreseeable future. I'll still do my best to keep up with Chop to the Top as it's the final round. I've held OCTs by the throat for the upwards of seven years (23 octs counting, that I had any hand in). I've come a long way, but constantly challenging myself is becoming less and less rewarding and, frankly, it's my own fault for using them as a crutch for my self-esteem. Which is more of a problem now that I'm having a harder time staying in them and making friends, too. I've found I've become addicted to stress and trying to cut back on things has really been on my mind for a long time. Even D&D, a thing that I enjoy so much that it bleeds into all my works, has seemed like more of a chore for me lately than a fun break. I can barely make myself want to go to one of them. OCTs are supposed to be something done as a hobby and I've been trying to take myself too seriously with deadlines (and cough, self-worth) that I didn't want to lose any of them. It affected how much free time I think I 'deserved' and even more, and just in general now seems like the best time to pull the plug because...
Not only am I starting a new,
real job (ie, not being a waitress or similar minimum wage part-time thing), but I've decided to
move out and rent a place. And it's going to be happening all around the same time. We just put a deposit on the place last night, before Dreamcatcher announced, and it's the main reason why I'm trying to be relieved about having one less commitment on my to-do list. This is on top of trying to become a self-proprietorship and work on selling my art at local cons, a thing that I really enjoy, and will be slightly harder to achieve in the beginning of a new full-time job. That's where I'll have to focus challenging myself, I guess.
That, and I'll actually honest-to-goodness work on a
webcomic. I'm planning one right now that should be a little, ah, less
ambitious than some of my other ideas to help me find my groove again. I hope you all stick around to see that. The plan was to get it ready before my next convention (August 3rd, a couple days after I move ;; ) and without Dreamcatcher, it might be possible to have something to show for it instead of perpetually pushing back my own projects.
You guys might not see me posting around on here very much. Deviantart has sort of turned into my 'OCT posting' page so without much for OCTs, it might get pretty stale.
As always, you can find me on
Twitter and now
Facebook by the same name as here. I also have an
Instagram . Twitter will have some more memes/art reblogs while all three will be posted simultaneously to show off more of my finished work, convention progress, and also share some artists I get art of my OCs from too. And if we're cool, you can add me on discord MischiefJoKeR#1622
So I may not see you guys in the OCT scene, but I'll still be around, just likely more busy taking a new direction in my life. Hopefully once I get sorted out, I can still find friends all around this community, whether it's a break for a few months or a few years. I'm super glad for all the friends and progress I've made by doing these OCTs and being part of this community. This sounds grossly like a goodbye in a life update so GG me, but I hope I get myself situated sooner rather than later.
But seriously though, this is the first-oct-comic-page-ever VS what I put out this month.
#goalz Keep doing what you guys are doing and being cool. I'll talk to ya later.